Sharing my process of self realization as one and equal to all life.

I like this title, because many will immediately ask questions as it very much goes against the grain, challenging the common, preconceived idea that “the more you know the better off you are” or “knowledge is power”. To be specific, this is not to say that knowledge is inherently useless, so for starters, I will point out one thing: have a look at all the knowledge we have acquired in this world, look at the time we are living in and how much there is – staggering amounts! Yet an interesting thing remains, the fact that pain and suffering still exist in this world, death and destruction and starvation etc all still exist as they always have. Through years of apparent evolution, the same problems that plague the overall experience of mankind still exist, they are still HERE. Does this mean only our knowledge has evolved? Only our technology has evolved? Who has evolved really? Ourselves, or the machines we build from knowledge? One might consider that the KNOWLEDGE of pain and suffering being shit experience seems to have fallen by the way side, which brings me to my main point.

Knowledge is useless without understanding. Knowledge is useless when it simply remains as knowledge, understood only by the mind and not as self, as LIVING the words you understand – that is true understanding, when the understanding is not somewhere inside your head but rather turns into a manifested living expression of you, knowledge is then lived and expressed. This was a big thing for me to understand, as I had become so used to understanding through and as the mind, which really was quite useless, because I never applied what I learned. One of the most helpful things ever said to me during my process was “you will not understand with the mind”, those words had an impact on me. As I have said before, the mind is like an attempt at understanding, an attempt at living, yet none can truly live in the mind. Its kind of like saying “stop thinking about living and live”, as life can only be lived, it can not be thought of in order to live. Because it is like a false attempt at living, we are able to be so self dishonest when living through and as the mind, as if it is telling you, convincing you, “oh yes, you are living, you are doing this, you are being this”. So deceiving, our own little monkey on our shoulders telling us what is going on rather than seeing for ourselves independently. I mean, if one were truly living something, why would they need to reaffirm it to themselves in their head?

We do this so much, we have the knowledge in our heads of what we’d like to think we are or be, or do, or what is right or wrong, yet we never live and apply it. We say one thing and do the other. We mean to do or be one thing yet things for some reason will turn out another way. We become experts at paying lip service to life, saying we understand, saying we are living or doing right by ourselves, to the point where in many cases we get used to lying to ourselves or each other to convince ourselves of this, to present ourselves as something we are not. The pictures in our heads are not our true image and likeness – just a photocopy of it.

Now everything I’m saying here goes very much against the grain of what is commonly accepted or believed, yet (as I’m sure many are figuring out) I have no problem going against the grain of a world who’s current condition is destroying itself. The more you know the better off you are? Quantity is not Quality. Knowledge is power? Only because it has been kept in the hands of the few and the understanding of how to apply it has been kept in the hands of even fewer, and thus it is wielded as a weapon against others. School and society, as with all things, plays a large role in this. We are taught in the schooling system to memorize large amounts of information and merely regurgitate them as a way of testing our understanding of it, often without any practical application of it! How silly is this?! This in no way tests ones true understanding of the content being studied, but rather absorbing it in memory, it is a shallow understanding. We carry a very shallow understanding of this world and our existence.

Expressing ourselves as who we are is self evident, it is always here, present in the physical, obvious for anyone who is looking to see, it needs not to be thought of or spoken of to be proven. When love exists, it is self evident, it need not be said, there should be no need to have it recognized, as though we are trying to convince ourselves we are living it. If one only had the knowledge of love through which to apply them selves, this then becomes a chosen, forced expression. It is unnatural. How can you choose to be something unless you are not yet already it? This is what I mean when I speak of deceiving ourselves with knowledge and information as understanding it through and as the mind, rather than LIVING the knowledge and information, standing one and equal to it, as a living expression of self as living words.

So this is a huge point in my process of stopping the mind, letting go of all the knowledge and information which exist in my head as thoughts feelings and emotions – to stop thinking about living and live! To stop having an idea about life in order to actually see the life that is right here in front of me! To not need or require any acquired information in order to direct me or to tell me how to apply myself in my life, but rather exist here in the breath as me unconditionally, as common sense.  It is only fear which has me allow myself to go back to my mind, as if I am referring to it for help! It is fear which has me engage my mind which is ever calculating, trying to determine possible outcomes and control my environment according to its idea of what is good and bad and what I want. Life is not able to be controlled this way! Not through fear, not through the mind. The only life that is worth living is not one of fear, but rather one of unconditional self direction, embracing all that I experience in this world as the experience of me.